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By Michael Nott. 2024
A no-holds-barred biography of the great poet and sexual rebel, who could “give the dead a voice, make them sing”…
(Hilton Als, The New Yorker). Thom Gunn was not a confessional poet, and he withheld much, but inseparable from his rigorous, formal poetry was a ravenous, acute experience of life and death. Raised in Kent, England, and educated at Cambridge, Gunn found a home in San Francisco, where he documented the city’s queerness, the hippie mentality (and drug use) of the sixties, and the tragedy and catastrophic impact of the AIDS crisis in the eighties and beyond. As Jeremy Lybarger wrote in The New Republic, the author of Moly and The Man with Night Sweats was “an agile poet who renovated tradition to accommodate the rude litter of modernity.” Thom Gunn: A Cool Queer Life chronicles, for the first time, the largely undocumented life of this revolutionary poet. Michael Nott, a coeditor of The Letters of Thom Gunn, draws on letters, diaries, notebooks, interviews, and Gunn’s poetry to create a portrait as vital as the man himself. Nott writes with insight and intimacy about the great sweep of Gunn’s life: his traditional childhood in England; his mother’s suicide; the mind-opening education he received at Cambridge, reading Shakespeare and John Donne; his decades in San Francisco and with his life partner, Mike Kitay; and his visceral experience of sex, drugs, and loss. Thom Gunn: A Cool Queer Life is a long-awaited, landmark study of one of England and America’s most innovative poets.By Tim Pocock. 2025
When you are raised to believe that the person you are is unacceptable, you hide. And you stay hidden. If…
you are X-Men and Dance Academy star Tim Pocock, you become an expert at hiding - until you can't anymore. Tim Pocock was a born performer. At ten, he took to the stage as a professional opera singer. At twenty-two, he launched his acting career in the blockbuster X-Men Origins: Wolverine and went on to star in the beloved series Dance Academy.But Tim's biggest role was one he never auditioned for - the role he played at home as a devout, straight son. Raised in a conservative Catholic family and attending a school with links to Opus Dei, Tim always knew that being gay was out of the question. He was encouraged to become a priest and experienced gay conversion therapy to have his sexuality hypnotised out of him.After making a bid for freedom, Tim traversed the glitzy landscape of Los Angeles, navigated the pressures of the acting industry, and made chaotic forays into the gay dating scene - all while carrying immense trauma.With unflinching honesty, Tim reveals his journey toward healing and shows how we can set ourselves free.'A brave and important memoir that captures the nuance and struggle of people trapped by the beliefs of their loved ones' IAN THORPE OAMBy Rosie Day. 2025
That dawning realisation: wait a hot minute, I think I like girls. But what comes next? If you're considering dating…
women for the first time, it can feel like stepping into a swirling vortex of confusion and excitement. Where's the roadmap? How do you find your community? The internet is a black hole of advice, and you just wish you could hear from someone who gets it - who can help you navigate it in a healthy way.Enter Rosie. She's been through it: the confusion, the chaos, the internal 'What the heck is going on?' moments, but also the beauty in all that mess. In this book, Rosie pulls from her own experiences and the stories of other women to give you candid, heartfelt wisdom on what it's like to explore your sexuality. Plus, she tosses in some soul-soothing exercises to help you feel confident while you figure it all out.From those first heart-racing girl crushes to coming out (on your own terms), navigating the dating world, building relationships and finding real community, Rosie's here to walk you through it. I Think I Like Girls is a story of growth, healing and transformation that'll have you feeling empowered and on the road to exploration in no time.By Rosie Day. 2025
That dawning realisation: wait a hot minute, I think I like girls. But what comes next? If you're considering dating…
women for the first time, it can feel like stepping into a swirling vortex of confusion and excitement. Where's the roadmap? How do you find your community? The internet is a black hole of advice, and you just wish you could hear from someone who gets it - who can help you navigate it in a healthy way.Enter Rosie. She's been through it: the confusion, the chaos, the internal 'What the heck is going on?' moments, but also the beauty in all that mess. In this book, Rosie pulls from her own experiences and the stories of other women to give you candid, heartfelt wisdom on what it's like to explore your sexuality. Plus, she tosses in some soul-soothing exercises to help you feel confident while you figure it all out.From those first heart-racing girl crushes to coming out (on your own terms), navigating the dating world, building relationships and finding real community, Rosie's here to walk you through it. I Think I Like Girls is a story of growth, healing and transformation that'll have you feeling empowered and on the road to exploration in no time.By Leonard Barkan. 2022
A gripping, funny, joyful account of how the books you read shape your own life in surprising and profound ways.Bookworms…
know what scholars of literature are trained to forget: that when they devour a work of literary fiction, whatever else they may be doing, they are reading about themselves. Read Shakespeare, and you become Cleopatra, Hamlet, or Bottom. Or at the very least, you experience the plays as if you are in a small room alone with them, and they are speaking to your life, your sensibility.Drawing on fifty years as a Shakespearean, Leonard Barkan has produced a captivating book that asks us to reconsider what it means to read. Barkan violates the rule of distance he was taught and has always taught his students. He asks: Where does this brilliantly contrived fiction actually touch me? Where is Shakespeare in effect telling the story of my life?King Lear, for Barkan, raises unanswerable questions about what exactly a father does after planting the seed. Mothers from Gertrude to Lady Macbeth are reconsidered in the light of the author’s experience as a son of a former flapper. The sonnets and comedies are seen through the eyes of a gay man who nevertheless weeps with joy when all the heterosexual couples are united at the end. A Midsummer Night’s Dream is interpreted through the author’s joyous experience of performing the role of Bottom and finding his aesthetic faith in the pantheon of antiquity. And the exquisitely poetical history play Richard II intersects with, of all things, Ru Paul’s Drag Race.Full of engrossing stories, from family secrets to the world of the theater, and written with humor and genuine excitement about literary experiences worthy of our attention and our love, Reading Shakespeare Reading Me makes Shakespeare’s plays come alive in new ways.By Ron Goldberg. 2022
Winner, "Gold" Independent Publishing Award (IPPY) for LGBTQ+ NonfictionWinner, The Randy Shilts Award for Gay Nonfiction, 34th Annual Triangle Awards2023…
Lammy Finalist, Gay Memoir/BiographyA coming-of-age memoir of life on the front lines of the AIDS crisis with ACT UP New York.From the moment Ron Goldberg stumbled into his first ACT UP meeting in June 1987, the AIDS activist organization became his life. For the next eight years, he chaired committees, planned protests, led teach-ins, and facilitated their Monday night meetings. He cruised and celebrated at ACT UP parties, attended far too many AIDS memorials, and participated in more than a hundred zaps and demonstrations, becoming the group’s unofficial “Chant Queen,” writing and leading chants for many of their major actions. Boy with the Bullhorn is both a memoir and an immersive history of the original New York chapter of ACT UP, the AIDS Coalition to Unleash Power, from 1987 to 1995, told with great humor, heart, and insight.Using the author’s own story, “the activist education of a well-intentioned, if somewhat naïve nice gay Jewish theater queen,” Boy with the Bullhorn intertwines Goldberg’s experiences with the larger chronological history of ACT UP, the grassroots AIDS activist organization that confronted politicians, scientists, drug companies, religious leaders, the media, and an often uncaring public to successfully change the course of the AIDS epidemic.Diligently sourced and researched, Boy with the Bullhorn provides both an intimate look into how activist strategies are developed and deployed and a snapshot of life in New York City during the darkest days of the AIDS epidemic. On the occasions where Goldberg writes outside his personal experience, he relies on his extensive archive of original ACT UP documents, news articles, and other published material, as well as activist videos and oral histories, to help flesh out actions, events, and the background stories of key activists. Writing with great candor, Goldberg examines the group’s triumphs and failures, as well as the pressures and bad behaviors that eventually tore ACT UP apart.A story of ordinary people doing extraordinary things, from engaging in outrageous, media-savvy demonstrations, to navigating the intricacies of drug research and the byzantine bureaucracies of the FDA, NIH, and CDC, Boy with the Bullhorn captures the passion, smarts, and evanescent spirit of ACT UP—the anger, grief, and desperation, but also the joy, camaraderie, and sexy, campy playfulness—and the exhilarating adrenaline rush of activism.By Elizabeth MacLeod. 2024
"Meet Jim Egan, the activist who fought for equality and human rights for gay Canadians at a time where it…
was often dangerous for LGBTQ2S+ people to speak up. Born in 1921, Jim had an ordinary childhood. But as he grew up, he knew he was a little different from his friends. He didn't like girls the same way they did. As a young man, Jim joined the war effort and travelled the world. He discovered there were other people like himself -- he was gay. Jim hadn't even known there was a word for it when he was growing up. That's because at the time, being identified as a member of the LGBTQ2S+ community wasn't safe. People lost their jobs and their families, got put in jail -- or worse -- so they hid who they were. But not Jim. He picked up his pen and started to fight for his rights. At first, he wrote letter after letter, in an attempt to get the media to stop portraying gay people in a negative way. Soon he was given a column to write about his community. Jim used his platform to talk about the need for tolerance and for the decriminalization of homosexuality. It was a fight that culminated in the 1995 Supreme Court ruling Egan v. Canada, a case that began in 1987 when Jim wanted his partner Jack to receive the same Old Age Security payment that a married person could get. Jim didn't win, but the case led to sexual orientation becoming a protected ground against discrimination under the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms, which opened the door to other equal rights including same-sex marriage."By Sarah Fabiny. 2024
Learn about the amazing life of the former world No. 1 tennis player who fought for gender equality in sports!…
Billie Jean King's legacy as a tennis star, a feminist, and an LGBTQ+ trailblazer shines through in this addition to the #1 New York Times Best-Selling Series. Billie Jean King grew up in a family of athletes. It was no surprise when she quickly began to excel at tennis. She became the top female singles player in the world and won 129 career singles titles, including Wimbledon and the US Open. Beyond being an excellent athlete, Billie Jean King used her voice to stand up for other women playing tennis who were not paid nearly as much as male players. In 1973, Billie Jean captured the world's attention when she beat Bobby Riggs in the "Battle of the Sexes," proving women were just as good at tennis as men. She went on to found the Women's Tennis Association, and thanks to her efforts, women athletes worldwide were finally able to be taken seriously and paid fairlyBy Jeff Hiller. 2025
A humorous collection of autobiographical essays from comedian and Somebody Somewhere actor Jeff Hiller, who shares his journey from growing…
up &“profoundly gay&” in 1980s Texas to his experiences as an inept social worker and how he clawed, scraped, and brawled to Hollywood&’s lower middle-tier. While struggling to find success as an actor and pay the bills, something accidentally happened to Jeff Hiller: he aged. And while it&’s one thing to get older and rest on the laurels of success from the blood, sweat, and tears of your youth, it&’s quite another to be old and have no laurels. At forty, stuck in a temp job making spreadsheets, the dream of becoming a star seemed out of reach. But after twenty-five years of guest roles on TV and performing improv in a grocery store basement, he finally struck gold with a breakout role on HBO&’s Somebody Somewhere, playing Joel—the kind of best friend everyone wishes they had. In his book, Jeff dives into the grit and grind of climbing the Hollywood ladder. It&’s a raw and often hilarious tale of the struggles, triumphs, and humiliations that shaped him into the wonderfully imperfect person he is today. With a mix of awkward charm and heartfelt honesty, Jeff shares his journey: growing up very Lutheran in Texas, navigating bullying as a gay kid, working as a social worker for unhoused youth and HIV prevention, and the endless ups and downs of being a struggling actor. For every one of us who have a dream that we&’re chasing—and chasing, and chasing—his is a funny, moving, and utterly relatable story.By Lidia Yuknavitch. 2010
This is not your mother's memoir. In The Chronology of Water, Lidia Yuknavitch, a lifelong swimmer and Olympic hopeful, escapes…
her raging father and alcoholic and suicidal mother when she accepts a swimming scholarship which drug and alcohol addiction eventually cause her to lose. What follows is promiscuous sex with both men and women, some of them famous, and some of it S&M, as Lidia discovers the power of her sexuality to help her forget her pain. The forgetting doesn't last, though, and it is her hard-earned career as a writer and teacher, and the love of her husband and son, that ultimately create the life she needs to survive. Adult. UnratedBy Michael Waters. 2024
Finalist for the 2024 Los Angeles Times Book Prize for History and the 2025 Mark Lynton History Prize. Named one…
of the Best Books of 2024 by The New Yorker, NPR and BookPage."Michael Waters performs an Olympian act of storytelling, using the stories of these extraordinary athletes to explore in brilliant detail the struggle for understanding and equality." —Jonathan Eig, author of King: A Life, winner of the Pulitzer PrizeThe story of the early trans athletes and Olympic bureaucrats who lit the flame for today’s culture wars. In December 1935, Zdeněk Koubek, one of the most famous sprinters in European women’s sports, declared he was now living as a man. Around the same time, the celebrated British field athlete Mark Weston, also assigned female at birth, announced that he, too, was a man. Periodicals and radio programs across the world carried the news; both became global celebrities. A few decades later, they were all but forgotten. And in the wake of their transitions, what could have been a push toward equality became instead, through a confluence of bureaucracy, war, and sheer happenstance, the exact opposite: the now all-too-familiar panic around trans, intersex, and gender nonconforming athletes. In The Other Olympians, Michael Waters uncovers, for the first time, the gripping true stories of Koubek, Weston, and other pioneering trans and intersex athletes from their era. With dogged research and cinematic flair, Waters also tracks how International Olympic Committee members ignored Nazi Germany’s atrocities in order to pull off the Berlin Games, a partnership that ultimately influenced the IOC’s nearly century-long obsession with surveilling and cataloging gender.Immersive and revelatory, The Other Olympians is a groundbreaking, hidden-in-the-archives marvel, an inspiring call for equality, and an essential contribution toward understanding the contemporary culture wars over gender in sports.By Luke Evans. 2024
From his humble beginnings in a quaint Welsh mining village to the dazzling lights of Hollywood, much-loved star, Luke Evans…
takes us on a poignant and inspiring journey that spans from the heart of Wales to behind the scenes of the global stage.Growing up in a small village in the Rhymney Valley, south Wales, Luke Evans’ early life was shaped by his Jehovah's Witness upbringing. While most children of his age spent their Saturday mornings watching Going Live on television, young Luke would dress in a suit and tie and join his parents to knock on doors to spread the word of his religion. From an early age, he felt different. This feeling of displacement was not limited to his faith; as he came to terms with his own sexuality, he also faced a difficult and uncertain path. In his poignant, tender and often humorous account, Luke shares his bold decision to leave home – and the religion – at seventeen to move to London, where the vibrant Soho scene captured his heart, invigorated his creative journey as an actor and opened a whole new world of opportunity.In finding himself, Luke also discovered his passions of singing, acting and performing. Starring first on the West End stages in iconic productions like Miss Saigon, Avenue Q and Rent, he quickly captivated the hearts of audiences and caught the eye of Hollywood's elite, going on to secure roles in blockbuster films such as The Hobbit, Beauty and the Beast, Fast and Furious and Dracula Untold.In this intimate memoir, Luke takes us behind the scenes of his career on the stage and screen. He writes beautifully of the relationship he now has with his family and the respect they all have for one another on their different paths. Luke's story is a powerful tale of resilience, courage, and the pursuit of finding a sense of belonging and identity, but mostly (and hopefully) a story of inspiration.By Thomas Mallon. 2025
From the renowned novelist and critic, an exquisite collection of journal entries from the 1980s and &’90s, tracking a young,…
gay author&’s literary coming-of-age in New York during the AIDS crisisIn 1983, Thomas Mallon was still unknown. A literature professor at Vassar College, he spent his days traveling from Manhattan to campus, reviewing books to make ends meet and searching the city for his own purpose and fulfillment. The AIDS epidemic was beginning to surge in New York City, the ever-bustling epicenter of literary culture and gay life, alive with parties, art, and sex.Though he didn&’t know it, everything would soon change for Mallon. Riding the success of his debut, A Book of One&’s Own, he became a fixture within the city&’s literary scene, crossing paths with cultural giants and becoming an editor at GQ. He captured it all in his daily journals. But in some ways it was the worst possible time for a gay coming-of-age in the city. One of his lovers succumbed to AIDS, and the illness of others was both a heartbreaking reality and a constant reminder of his own exposure.Tracing his own life day by day, Mallon evokes all that those years encompassed: the hookups, intensifying politics, personal tragedies, as well as his own blossoming success and eventual romantic happiness. The Very Heart of It is a brilliant and bewitching look into the daily life of one of our most important literary figures, and a keepsake from a bygone era.By Melissa Febos. 2025
The award-winning author of Girlhood returns with a revelatory chronicle of her year of celibacy and its transformative impact on…
her relationships—to others, and to herself.In the wake of a catastrophic two-year relationship, Melissa Febos decided to take a break—for three months she would abstain from dating and casual sex. Ever since her teens, she'd been in one entanglement after another. As she puts it, she could trace a &“daisy chain of romances&” from her adolescence to her mid-thirties. And no matter where her partners identified on the gender spectrum, she always instinctively molded herself to appeal to them.Over those first few months, she gleaned insights into her past and awoke to the joys of being single. She decided to extend her celibacy not knowing it would become the most sensual and satisfying year of her life. Unburdened by preoccupations that had consumed her for decades, she learned to relish the delights of solitude and the thrill of living on her own terms.A reckoning with lifelong patterns and dominant systems of power, The Dry Season puts Febos's experience into conversation with those of women throughout history—from Sappho to mystic nuns to Virginia Woolf—situating it within a lineage of queer and feminist role models in unapologetic pursuit of their ambitions and ideals.Blending intimate personal narrative and incisive cultural criticism, Febos tells a story that's as much about celibacy as it is about its inverse: pleasure, desire, fulfillment. Infused with her fearless honesty and keen intellect, it's the memoir of a woman learning to live at the centre of her story, and a much-needed catalyst for a more radical conversation around sex and love.By Jeremy Atherton Lin. 2025
Queerty's Spring 2025 LGBTQ+ Books Roundup From the National Book Critics Circle Award-winning author of Gay Bar comes a rule-breaking,…
sweat-soaked, genre-busting story of outlaw love. It&’s 1996, and Jeremy Atherton Lin has met the boy of his dreams — a mumbling, starry-eyed Brit — just as, amid a media frenzy, US Congress prepares the Defense of Marriage Act, denying same-sex couples federal rights including immigration. The pair steals away to remote forests and vast deserts, London fashion shows and Berlin sex clubs, dinner parties, back alleys, East Village hotel rooms, and San Francisco dives. Finding no other way to stay together, they shack up illicitly among unlikely allies in a &“city of refuge.&” With Atherton Lin&’s inimitable blend of tenderness and wicked humor, Deep House moves through the couple&’s string of rented apartments while unlocking doors to a lineage of gay men who have come before — smuggling a foreign partner through national checkpoints or going public to stand up for the right to get down in the privacy of their own homes. They include hapless criminals, sexpot bartenders, friars, pirates, government workers who subverted the system, activists who went all the way to the Supreme Court, and the celebrated artist Felix Gonzalez-Torres. Following Gay Bar — called &“a rich tapestry&” by Vanity Fair and &“an absolute tour de force&” by Maggie Nelson — Deep House juxtaposes whispered disclosures of undocumented domesticity with courtroom drama and political stunts to explore myriad forms of intimacy while questioning the mechanisms that legitimize love. Deep House is at once a historical kaleidoscope and the innermost tale of two boyfriends who made a home in the shadows of a turbulent civil rights battle.By Erik Piepenburg. 2025
From a New York Times journalist, a culinary tour of gay restaurants—their history, and how they evolved as a space…
of safety and celebration for the LGBTQ+ community—full of joy, sex, sorrow, activism, and nostalgia.Dining Out explores how gay people came of age, came out, and fought for their rights not just in gay bars or the streets, but in restaurants. From cruisy urban cafeterias of the 1920s to mom-and-pop diners that fed the Stonewall generation to the intersectional hotspots of the early 21st century. Using archival material, original reporting and interviews, and first-person accounts, Erik Piepenburg explores how LGBTQ restaurants shaped and continue to shape generations of gay Americans. Through the eyes of a reporter and the stomach of a hungry gay man, Dining Out examines the rise, impact and legacies of the nation's gay restaurants past, present, and future, connecting meals with memories. Hamburger Mary&’s, Florent, a suburban Denny&’s queered by kids: Piepenburg explores how these and many other gay restaurants, coffee shops, diners, and unconventional eateries have charted queer placemaking and changed the modern LGBTQ civil rights movement for the better.By Robin Stevenson. 2024
"This book for middle grade readers explores the history of queer activism in North America and the fight for equality…
for LGBTQ+ folks. The content is structured in an A-Z format, with such entries as "A Is for Activism" and "C Is for Coming Out." Readers will learn about the Stonewall Riots, Marsha P. Johnson, Indigenous queer activism, the Oscar Wilde Memorial Bookshop, Pride flags and so much more. Young readers will be especially interested in learning about youth activists such as Gavin Grimm, the first Gay-Straight Alliance and the history of banned children's books in America. Award-winning author Robin Stevenson brings this history to life in a way that is equally informative, inspiring and accessible for young readers. Her books have received a Stonewall Book Honour and won the Silver Birch Award. Extensive end matter includes short biographies of historical figures, glossary, timeline, resources for kids, author's sources and index."By Sara Glass. 2024
A 2025 AMERICAN LIBRARY ASSOCIATION STONEWALL HONOR BOOK In this &“searing testament to the strength in claiming one&’s destiny&” (The…
Washington Post), a young woman desperately attempts to protect her children and family while also embracing her queer identity in a controlling Hasidic community. This memoir is perfect for fans of Unorthodox and Educated.Growing up in the Hasidic community of Brooklyn&’s Borough Park, Sara Glass knew one painful truth: what was expected of her and what she desperately wanted were impossibly opposed. Tormented by her attraction to women and trapped in a loveless arranged marriage, she ultimately could not conform to her religious upbringing and eventually made the difficult decision to walk away from the world she knew. Sara&’s journey to self-acceptance began with the battle for a divorce and custody of her children, an act that left her on the verge of estrangement from her family and community. Controlled by the fear of losing everything, she forced herself to remain loyal to the compulsory heteronormativity baked into Hasidic Judaism and married again. But after suffering profound loss and a shocking sexual assault, Sara decided to finally be completely true to herself. Kissing Girls on Shabbat is both an unflinching window into the world of ultra-conservative Orthodox Jewish communities and an inspiring celebration of learning to love yourself that ultimately &“leaves a mark&” (Publishers Weekly).By Shon Faye. 2025
A Sunday Times (London) bestseller. Named a Most Anticipated Book by Vogue, Vulture, and ELLE UK."Uncommonly wise and honest. Love…
in Exile flooded me with a sense of continuity and hope. A masterpiece from start to finish." —Maggie Nelson, author of Like Love"Should be required reading for anyone who wants to join a dating app, love ethically, or experience true partnership with other humans." —Melissa Febos, author of Girlhood and The Dry SeasonA disarmingly wry treatise-cum-memoir on love in a lonely age by a celebrated thinker and columnist for Vogue.Love is supposedly attainable for us all. But for most people, especially women, success with “love”—the yardstick we use to measure our value across romance, parenthood, sex, religion, and friendship—can feel out of reach, an experience frequently ascribed to a personal failing. This sense of unworthiness is, according to Shon Faye, “a form of exile: an intentional, punitive banishment that serves political ends.” Faye, a trans woman in her thirties, has felt isolated from love for as long as she can remember. So after the devastation of her first heartbreak, she figured it was time to find out why.The subsequent investigation, Love in Exile, boldly reframes love’s elusiveness as a collective question. Conversationally frank and intellectually ambitious, these eight voice-driven essays unpack the norms governing love in our time with the insight of a shrewd outsider. Here, Faye examines her breakups with cis men alongside lessons from Lana Del Rey and Alain de Botton, explores the lovelessness that fueled her time as an addict, tackles the relationship between feminine self-worth and motherhood, and finally attempts to discover genuine self-acceptance.The result is a dive into universal, deeply felt questions about love, reframed through a radical, revolutionary perspective. Written with the humor and rigor that made Faye an internationally bestselling writer, Love in Exile is a thrilling reckoning with love in our time.