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By Elaine Glass. 2024
"This book has the power to connect you with your soul and transform your life."— Kristen Butler, founder of Power…
of PositivityWe're living in frenetic times. Amid the busyness and complexity, you may also feel directionless and overwhelmed. Maybe you know there&’s more to life, but you have no idea what that "more" is. Maybe you sense there's a message you need to hear, but the noise of everyday life is drowning it out.Get Quiet is your guide to turn down the volume and tune in to the voice of your soul.In these pages, coach and healer Elaine Glass invites you to walk with her on the Get Quiet Way—a practice of healing and transformation inspired by the classical form of the labyrinth. You&’ll follow seven circuits of reflection and discovery, each engaging an energy point on the body to awaken its particular power, until you reach a still point at the center—a sacred space where you can connect deeply with the truth of who you are. Finally, you'll step back into the world feeling stronger and clearer, more at peace, and open to new possibilities for a life of purpose and joy."A timely antidote to the overwhelm that so many of us are feeling. Just as healthy foods are the right medicine for your body, Get Quiet is the right medicine for your soul."— Mark Hyman, M.D., author of the #1 New York Times bestseller Young ForeverBy Jon Kabat-Zinn. 2023
Find quiet reflective moments in your life—and reduce your stress levels drastically—with this classic bestselling guide updated and featuring a…
new introduction and afterword. When Wherever You Go, There You Are was first published in 1994, no one could have predicted that the book would launch itself onto bestseller lists nationwide and sell over 1 million copies to date. Thirty years later, Wherever You Go, There You Are remains a foundational guide to mindfulness and meditation, introducing readers to the practice and guiding them through the process. The author of over half a dozen books on mindfulness, Jon Kabat-Zinn combines his research and medical background with his spiritual knowledge to help readers find peace and change their lives. In this new edition, readers will find a new introduction and afterword from Kabat-Zinn, as well as factual updates throughout to address changes in research and knowledge since it was originally published. After the special tumult of the last few years, as well as the promise of more unrest in the future, Wherever You Go, There You Are serves as an anchor for a whole new generation of readers looking to find their center and achieve their true self.By Cash Lambert. 2024
A deep look into the surf therapy movement, the therapists at the forefront of this radical new treatment, and its…
many applications for treating anxiety, PTSD, and more. Surfing? As a form of therapy? It&’s not just possible—it&’s powerful. Surf therapy is an emerging field with promising results which aims to address the mental, physical and emotional epidemics of the modern age. In Surf Therapy, author Cash Lambert paddles out with today&’s leading surf therapy practitioners and surf therapy organizations to discover how surfing is changing lives for the better.See how much surf therapy can help in treating: • Drug addiction and addiction recovery• Children and adults diagnosed with autism• Social development of at-risk inner-city children• Physical disabilities like spinal cord injuries• PTSD in active-duty police officers• Terminal illnesses like cystic fibrosis• Women recovering from abusive living situationsWith interviews from today&’s leading surf therapy practitioners and data from groundbreaking studies, Surf Therapy is a story of science, resilience, and the lengths that humans will go to help one another in need.&“A holistic vision breathtaking in scope.&”—Frances Moore LappéDistilling a lifetime&’s insights on the triangle of healing emotional pain, social justice…
work, and spiritual growth, veteran activist and educator John Bell shares personal stories and reflective practices to help us on our path of personal and collective transformationUnbroken Wholeness brings an integrated lens of social justice, trauma healing, and spiritual practice to the work we do in the world and the pressing concerns of our times.Collectively, these writings help us access a view of the world as unbroken, even in the face of obvious suffering and disharmony. With searching questions and easy-to-follow practices, Unbroken Wholeness offers a way for activists to apply mindfulness and insight to bring about healing for seemingly intractable social divisions. &“Skillfully handling our emotional pain about the world while cultivating a joyful and kind heart helps us navigate the troubled waters of our life,&” says John Bell. Continuing the peace work of his teacher, the Vietnamese social activist and Zen master Thich Nhat Hanh, John Bell brings forward the importance of cultivating a practical yet visionary, ennobling view of humankind when engaging in the &“mud&” of daily difficulties that gives rise to the lotus of an enlightened, compassionate heart.By Karla Tatiana Vasquez. 2024
A beautifully photographed cookbook that celebrates the vibrant culture and community of El Salvador through 80 recipes and stories from…
twenty-five Salvadoran women.&“A heartfelt tribute to heritage, a testament to the power of storytelling, and an invitation to savor the true essence of El Salvador, one delicious recipe at a time.&”—Hawa Hassan, James Beard Award–winning author of In Bibi&’s KitchenIn search of the recipes and traditions that made her feel at home, food historian and Salvadoran Karla Tatiana Vasquez took to the internet to find the dishes her mom made throughout her childhood. But when she couldn't find any, she decided to take matters into her own hands. What started as a desire to document recipes turned into sharing the joys, histories, and tribulations of the women in her life.In this collection of eighty recipes, Karla shares her conversations with moms, aunts, grandmothers, and friends to preserve their histories so that they do not go unheard. Here are recipes for Rellenos de Papa from Patricia, who remembers the Los Angeles earthquakes of the 1980s for more reasons than just fear; Flor de Izote con Huevos Revueltos, a favorite of Karla's father; as well as variations on the beloved Salvadoran Pupusa, a thick masa tortilla stuffed with different combinations of pork, cheese, and beans. Though their stories vary, the women have a shared experience of what it was like in El Salvador before the war, and what life was like as Salvadoran women surviving in their new home in the United States.By Matthew McKay. 2024
• Offers a step-by-step process to unleash the unconscious and intuitive wisdom held in the awareness of your soul: Deep…
Knowledge Meditation • Includes guided journal prompts to help you listen to your heart and shine a light on your own deepest wisdom and soul knowledge • Shares channeled lessons from the author&’s late son Jordan on the mysteries of human existence, including what the divine or god is, the nature of a soul, the nature of matter and energy, the role of love in our lives, and the origin of the universe Human life is surrounded by mystery. At the center of this mystery is the question: Why are we here? is there a purpose to our existence, a reason why we&’re experiencing the beauty and pain of physical life? There is also the mystery of the universe itself. What is it and where did it come from? Religious and spiritual traditions have created complex cosmologies to answer these questions, but each tradition has a different answer and we are left with profound uncertainty about deeper reality. As psychologist Matthew McKay reveals, we can each discover our own answers to these questions, our own inner truth, by connecting with the wisdom of our souls. In this guided workbook, McKay offers a step-by-step process to unleash the unconscious and intuitive wisdom held in the awareness of your soul. He explains how to use &“deep knowledge meditation&” to access all of your soul&’s accumulated knowledge, everything you have learned across all of your incarnations. Channeling his late son, Jordan, a discarnate soul who has lived hundreds of lives, McKay shares Jordan&’s lessons on the mysteries of human existence, including what the divine or god is, the nature of a soul, the nature of matter and energy, the role of love in our lives, and the origin of the universe. Accompanying these channeled teachings are journal prompts from Jordan, to be used with deep knowledge meditation, to help you listen to your heart and shine a light on your own deepest wisdom and soul knowledge. Guiding you on a journey of self-discovery, this book offers the opportunity to find your soul&’s truth about your life&’s purpose and the nature of physical reality.By Heidi Beierle. 2024
A memoir of homecoming – Heidi Across America is a gritty story of how opening our hearts to others enables…
us to open our hearts to ourselves and love what we find there.In the summer of 2010, Heidi Beierle had just finished her first year of graduate studies in community and regional planning and decided to pedal her bicycle solo from her home on the west coast across rural America to the Preserving the Historic Road conference in Washington, D.C. What started as a research trip turned into an intimately physical and psychological encounter with self and nationhood. Heidi was 35 at the time and didn&’t love much about herself except her ability to endure grueling physical undertakings. She viewed her journey as an opportunity to fix her failures and insufficiencies. There were also some research questions she wanted to explore: Why do people live in small towns and what do they like about it? Did a bicyclist like herself bring economic benefit to the small towns she visited? What could communities do to support or invite cyclists to stay in their towns? What could cyclists do to support the communities? Along the way, she was surprised by the kindness of strangers and the emotional pinch of traveling through Wyoming where she grew up. Her journey led her through the Plains and into the Ozarks where the heat climbed to agonizing temperatures and every pedal stroke in the heat felt one closer to death. By the time she completed the trip, Heidi discovered a newfound compassion for herself and a growing love for her country. Strangers opened their hearts to her and in turn, she opened her heart to herself. And her questions began to change and mirror things many Americans are asking themselves today: How can I be okay in my own skin? What does it mean to be enough? How do I satisfy my desire to travel without harming the planet? What does it mean to love America? For many young people, it is a rite of passage to light out on an adventure to see the world and expose themselves to new experiences, but we don&’t often talk about how Americans seeing America can open us to the diversity, awe, and wonder available right here in our nation. Heidi Across America offers a journey to self-love, empathy, consideration for others, and respect for the spirit of place as pathways to find connection and home.By Emily Oster, Nathan Fox. 2024
From the New York Times bestselling author of Expecting Better, a guide to navigating a second pregnancy when the first…
did not go as planned—with Dr. Nathan Fox, maternal fetal medicine specialistIn Expecting Better, Emily Oster revolutionized the pregnancy landscape with her data-driven approach. In the years since, she kept hearing questions from readers on how to approach a second pregnancy when the first has not gone as planned.While The Unexpected is a book that Oster hopes no one needs, the reality is that 50 percent of pregnancies include complications, a fact we don&’t talk about. Preeclampsia, miscarriage, hyperemesis gravidarum, preterm birth, postpartum depression: these are lonely experiences, and that isolation makes treatment harder to access—and crucial research and policy change less likely to happen.The Unexpected lays out the data on recurrence and treatments shown to lower or mitigate risk for these conditions in subsequent pregnancies. It also provides readers road maps to facilitate productive conversations with their providers, with insights from lauded maternal fetal medicine specialist Dr. Nathan Fox.By bridging the knowledge gap and making space for difficult conversations, The Unexpected promises to make the hardest parts of pregnancy a little bit less so.By Stephanie Middleberg. 2024
The only guide you need to nourishing yourself and your baby from the first through fourth trimesters, from the bestselling…
author of The Big Book of Organic Baby FoodWhen you found out you were pregnant, you were probably given a long list of things you were no longer &“supposed&” to do. But what you really need is a practical guide to all the things you can do to feel as empowered and strong as possible. The Big Book of Pregnancy Nutrition is the comprehensive handbook to everything a mama-to-be needs to feel healthy and supported for her entire pregnancy—and beyond—from licensed nutritionist, registered dietitian, and mom-of-two Stephanie Middleberg.This one-of-a-kind resource covers everything from prenatal vitamins and supplements to foods that alleviate constipation and heartburn to preparing for your glucose test and what to cook and freeze before the baby comes. Learn which foods may help your baby&’s developing microbiome, decrease nausea, ease labor pains, and build your milk supply.Inside, you&’ll find more than forty delicious, easy, nutritious recipes to fit any preference, including:roasted red pepper and asparagus frittatabutternut squash and apple soupmiso salmon with bok choylemon coconut energy biteschocolate chip lactation cookiesPregnancy can be hard, but with Middleberg&’s expert guidance, you will find that fueling yourself and your growing baby doesn&’t have to be.By Ryan Serhant. 2018
This national bestseller is a lively and practical guide on how to sell anything and achieve long-term success in business.…
Ryan Serhant was a shy, jobless hand model when he entered the real estate business in 2008 at a time the country was on the verge of economic collapse. Just nine years later, he has emerged as one of the top realtors in the world and an authority on the art of selling. Sell It Like Serhant is a smart, at times hilarious, and always essential playbook to build confidence, generate results, and sell just about anything. You'll find tips like: The Seven Stages of Selling How to Find Your Hook; Negotiating Like A BOSS; How to Be a Time Manager, Not a Time Stealer; and much more!Through useful lessons, lively stories, and vivid examples, this book shows you how to employ Serhant's principles to increase profits and achieve success. Your measure of a good day will no longer depend on one deal or one client, wondering what comes next; the next deal is already happening. And Serhant's practical guidance will show you how to juggle multiple deals at once and close all of them EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. Whatever your business or expertise, Sell It Like Serhant will make anyone a master at sales. Ready, set, GO!Sell It Like Serhant is a USA Today Bestseller, Los Angeles Times Bestseller, and Wall Street Journal Bestseller.By Emma Maidment. 2024
Are you stuck in a perpetual cycle of repeating the same patterns over and over? Do you know there's more…
to life than just following what you 'should' do? Do you feel foggy in your mind, uninspired by your life? Are you sick of being in survival mode?Let go of your addiction to friction and drama with this practical personal development guide to freeing yourself from limiting beliefs. Learn how to respond to life rather than react, and move from surviving to thriving with podcaster, mentor and wellbeing expert Emma Maidment.Your innate wisdom wants to guide you back into alignment so you can live heart-forward and in flow. Find Your Flow will help you connect to your innate essence, find magic in the mundane and form a deeper connection with those around you - because you deserve to live a life in the flow lane!By Sarah Shaw. 2024
This lively introduction to Buddhist meditation offers students and practitioners alike a deeper understanding of what meditation is and its…
purpose and place in the context of different Buddhist schools. The historical background and geographical spread of Buddhist meditation is explored alongside an examination of the development of meditative practices. Chapters cover basic meditative practice, types of meditation, meditation in different regions, meditation and doctrine, and the role of chanting within meditation. Although not a practical guide, Introduction to Buddhist Meditation outlines the procedures associated with Buddhist practices and suggests appropriate activities, useful both for students and interested Buddhists. Vivid quotations from Buddhist texts and carefully selected photographs and diagrams help the reader engage fully with this fascinating subject.Thoroughly revised throughout, this new edition also features a glossary and key, making it ideal reading for students approaching the topic of Buddhist meditation for the first time.By Christy Angelle Bauman. 2024
A daring invitation to discover and claim your identity and purpose, and to embrace the freedom to thrive right where…
you are&“A wise, gentle, and compelling vision of what needs to be consecrated in a woman&’s life—the deaths and the births of hope.&”—Dan B. Allender, PhD, founding president of the Seattle School of Theology and PsychologyEvery woman wants wholeness—to be at home in her body, in her relationships, in her life. But women too often feel that they don&’t belong to themselves. The path to wholeness, to a woman belonging to herself, is formidable, and women know they can&’t travel it alone. Author, teacher, and therapist Dr. Christy Angelle Bauman has dedicated her life to guiding women on this path to meaning and profound joy. In Her Rites, Dr. Bauman takes you into her office and through six transformative exercises: a deep dive into the most common rites of passage in every woman&’s life, when she sometimes loses hold of herself but also has a unique opportunity to reclaim herself.• Birth: claiming how and why you came into the world• Initiation: coming of age• Exile: finding yourself• Creation: bringing something new into the world• Intuition: acquiring embodied wisdom that comes later in life• Legacy: living with emotional and spiritual readiness for one&’s own death These rites help women to find wholeness and self-knowledge. Included in Her Rites are ritual templates and exercises that Dr. Bauman employs with her clients, which will help any woman incorporate the principles of self-reclamation into her daily life.Dr. Bauman has seen again and again that by learning to pause and to reflect on these key moments, we can come home to ourselves and receive the gift of flourishing.By Jim VandeHei. 2024
A deeply personal, authentic, and clear-eyed guide to navigating today&’s complex world and building a meaningful, successful career and life—no…
matter where you start out—from the bestselling author and cofounder of Axios and Politico.Jim VandeHei&’s high school guidance counselor laid it out clearly: VandeHei wasn&’t cut out for college. In 1990, you could find him proving the counselor&’s case emphatically, preferring beer to books and delivering pizzas to mapping out career plans. He attended a two-year school before smuggling himself into the University of Wisconsin-Oshkosh, where after a year he had racked up a 1.4 GPA and was on the verge of getting the boot.Everything changed when he discovered his passions: politics and journalism. VandeHei went on to cover the presidency and cofound two of the biggest modern news outlets, Politico and Axios, the media companies that upended and revolutionized journalism. He took notes every step of the way. And in Just the Good Stuff, his debut as a solo author, VandeHei writes the book he wishes someone had handed him when he was floundering—not a compendium of conventional wisdom but a real-world guide to achieving that other &“good stuff,&” health, wealth, happiness, all the blessings and exquisite pleasures we loosely group under that oft used but still under-appreciated rubric—success. Delivered in his hallmark no-word-wasted style, VandeHei offers essential, no-BS guidance on how to handle everything from finding a calling to building a team to navigating the realities of a changing workplace, showing us that no matter how inauspicious our beginnings, no matter how far down the ladder we begin, no matter what kind of challenges we face, a fulfilling life is within our reach.By Nicole Pensak. 2024
matrescence noun /mæ'tres.?nts/ the process of becoming a mother: The physical, psychological, and emotional changes you go through after the birth…
of your child . . . largely unexplored in the medical community. —Cambridge Dictionary Most new mothers bring their infants to the doctor but ignore any distressing feelings or sensations they might themselves have—that sense of being “rattled” at many moments throughout the day and night. In Rattled, Dr. Nicole Pensak shares her own experiences and those of her patients to help new mothers feel informed, validated, and guided through matrescence. After giving birth, a woman often feels like a completely different person. It may sound dramatic, but the rollercoaster of physical and psychological changes affects brain and body in a similar way that adolescence changes us. To compound that, many women hide these feelings, worrying that something is wrong with them. Dr. Nicole Pensak is here to reassure us that being “rattled” is normal, and not at all surprising. After all, seismic changes in identity and emotion have occurred. Research shows that a woman’s brain shifts in real, biological ways very quickly after giving birth. Many women become hypervigilant, for good reason: the brain is telling her to stay alert because she has a human to keep alive and safe. While these brainpower boosts can cause anxious feelings, they can also help to manage the distress and harness the advantages of the postpartum brain. In fact, this is a time of neuroplasticity, when the brain is more receptive to positive reinforcement. Trained at Yale and Harvard and certified in perinatal mental health, Dr. Pensak provides practical and emotional support, helping to relieve the anxiety and pressure for perfection in motherhood and paving the way for a better beginning for families and babies. She discusses mental health treatment and the upside of therapy during this changing time, and offers accessible scientific information, relatable anecdotes, and strategies for self-care. The result is a reassuring and practical handbook that new mothers and their families will refer to time and again.By Joshua Berman, Moon Travel Guides. 2024
Colorado is a hiker&’s paradise. With four national parks and a dozen national monuments, recreation areas and more, adventure is…
at every turn. Pack a lunch, lace up your boots, and hit the trails with Moon Colorado Hiking. Inside you'll find:Diverse Hiking Options: Whether you plan to hike to the crest of the Continental Divide, through thick fairytale aspen groves or to one of hundreds of iconic snow-capped peaks, enjoy outdoor getaways ranging from easy day hikes to multi-day backpacking trips Find Your Hike: Looking for something specific? Choose from strategic lists of the best hikes for wildflowers, waterfalls, or hiking with your dog, plus a breakdown of the best hikes by season The Top Outdoor Experiences: Climb the dunes at Great Sand Dunes National Park and Preserve or walk through golden aspen groves along Kenosha Pass. Gawk at red rock formations along the Garden of the Gods Loop or challenge yourself while you huff and puff to the top of Quandary Peak Nearby Fun: Spend a night under the stars at a nearby campground or sip a refreshing local brew after a day on the trail Essential Planning Details: Each hike is described in detail and marked with round-trip distance and hiking time, difficulty, terrain type, elevation gain, and access points Maps and Directions: Find easy-to-use maps, driving directions to each trailhead, and details on where to park Expert Advice: Seasoned hiker Joshua Berman offers experienced insights, local secrets, and honest opinions of each trail Tips and Tools: Advice on gear, first aid, and camping permits, plus background information on climate, landscape, and wildlife Whether you're a veteran or a first-time hiker, Moon's comprehensive coverage and local expertise will have you gearing up for your next adventure.About Moon Travel Guides: Moon was founded in 1973 to empower independent, active, and conscious travel. We prioritize local businesses, outdoor recreation, and traveling strategically and sustainably. Moon Travel Guides are written by local, expert authors with great stories to tell—and they can't wait to share their favorite places with you. Pitching a tent? Check out Moon Colorado Camping!By Brian Boniface, Chris Cooper. 2024
Worldwide Destinations: The Geography of Travel and Tourism is a unique text that explores tourism demand, supply, organisation, and resources…
for every country worldwide in a logically structured and accessible format.The ninth edition is fully updated to include the following features: Greater exploration of current issues such as climate change, the impact of COVID-19 on destinations and subsequent recovery strategies, regenerative tourism, changes in consumer behaviour, and sustainability New and updated case studies throughout Increased emphasis on South America and a new chapter focussing on the tourism geography of Antarctica Enhanced online resources for lecturers and students including PPTs, web links, video links, MCQs, and discussion questions The first part of this book comprises thematic chapters that detail the geographic knowledge and principles required to analyse the tourism appeal of destinations. The subsequent division of this book into regional chapters enables the student to carry out a systematic analysis of a particular destination by providing insights on cultural characteristics as well as information on specific places.This volume is an invaluable resource for studying every destination in the world, explaining tourism demand, evaluating the many types of tourist attractions, and examining the trends that may shape the future geography of tourism. This thorough guide is a must-have for any student undertaking a course in travel and tourism.By Kathie Lee Gifford. 2024
We all want to matter, right? We want to love people well and be loved in return. We want to…
have made a difference before our life is over. We want to have lived a full life without any regrets. In I Want to Matter, New York Times bestselling author and former Today show host Kathie Lee Gifford shares stories about her life and encourages you to remember your self-worth and never give up on your dreams.In this beautiful two-color 60-day DayReader® each day features a:focal topic,story from Kathie Lee Gifford's life,and reflection questions to help you apply the message to your own life.I Want to Matter is inspired by a song written by Kathie Lee and includes content from her New York Times bestselling book, It's Never Too Late. She wants to help you feel seen and heard. This daily reader is great for:birthdays, Mother's Day, Teacher Appreciation Day, Hanukkah, Christmas, or as a just because gift to anyone needing encouragement.morning and night reading routines.anyone searching for an inspirational message.This DayReader® is a way for you to relive the moments that shaped you into who you are today and will allow you to revive your ability to wonder because you truly do matter.By Stephanie May Wilson. 2024
As women, we're often told that we're entitled or unrealistic when we want to create a life we love. We start…
hearing this message from a very early age, and by the time we're old enough to know what we want, we've also been taught to doubt our instincts and to see selfishness in all our longings.This book is the antidote to those voices. . .and the way forward.Writer, speaker, and podcaster Stephanie May Wilson has helped thousands of women shrug off the pressure of what they think their lives are supposed to look like and take on the next big decision or life transition with intentionality and confidence.Create a Life You Love is a warm, passionate guide on how you can rediscover your own authority and build a life you're finally excited to live. You'll learn how to:Define yourself on your own terms by setting aside societal pressures that tell you who you're supposed to be.Feel empowered to make your next big decisions with confidence and clarity.Build security and peace in both who you are and the season you're in.Through stories, exercises, and hard-won wisdom, Create a Life You Love will help you untangle your own expectations from the expectations of others and get inspired to at last pursue a life that you're excited to wake up to each day.By Emily Ballesteros. 2024
&“An empowering guidebook to combatting burnout . . . Emily Ballesteros&’s advice is useful and practical, especially for young workers…
eager to reclaim their time and energy.&”—Charles Duhigg, New York Times bestselling author of The Power of Habit and Smarter Faster Better Is dread the first thing you feel when you wake up in the morning? Are you working in the evenings and on weekends to catch up? Have you already beat burnout once, only to find it creeping back? If you answered yes to any of these, you&’re in need of a cure for burnout. In The Cure for Burnout , burnout management coach and TikTok influencer Emily Ballesteros combines scientific and cultural research, her expertise in organizational psychology, and the tried-and-true strategies she&’s successfully implemented with clients around the globe to demystify burnout for our post-pandemic world – and set you on a path toward a life of personal and professional balance. Ballesteros outlines five areas in which you can build healthy habits to combat burnout — mindset, personal care, time management, boundaries , and stress management . She offers clear, easy-to-implement tools to help you find greater balance, energy, and fulfillment, showing you how to: • break burnout habits that keep you in a pattern of chronic overwhelm • create sustainable work/life balance through predictable personal care • get more done in less time while creating forward momentum toward a meaningful life • identify and set your personal and professional limits , guilt-free • master your stress and detach from your stressors The Cure for Burnout provides a holistic method for burnout management to address the epidemic of our always-on, chronically overextended culture, empowering us to reclaim control of our own lives once and for all