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By Harriet Reuter Hapgood. 2019
Harriet Reuter Hapgood's beautiful writing radiates with color in How to be Luminous, a lyrical and engrossing story about the…
aftermath of tragedy and the power of self-belief and love.Minnie Sloe and her sisters have weathered it all together—growing up without fathers, living an eccentric lifestyle with a pet rabbit named Salvador Dali, and riding out their famous artist mother’s mental highs and lows.But then their mother disappears, and Minnie, who was supposed to follow in her footsteps, starts seeing the world in monochrome. Literally. How can she create when all she sees is black-and-white?As grief threatens to tear the three sisters apart, Minnie fears she could lose everything: her family, her future, her first love . . . and maybe even her mind.By Te Carter. 2019
From TE Carter, All We Could Have Been is a powerful and heartbreaking look at the assumptions we make about…
people and how one person’s actions can affect everyone around them. Five years ago, Lexi witnessed something that shattered her very core. To cope, she moves from town to town, desperate to hide the darkest of family secrets. In every location, she assumes a new name and flies under the radar as long as she can before anyone figures out who she is—who she’s related to. Lexie now lives with her aunt, has minimal interaction with her parents, and has no communication with her brother. But the pain is always there.After starting her newest school, all she wants is to just live life. But how can she when the past keeps threatening to drag her back?By Emily X.R. Pan. 2018
A stunning, heartbreaking debut novel about grief, love, and family, perfect for fans of Jandy Nelson and Celeste Ng. Leigh…
Chen Sanders is absolutely certain about one thing: When her mother died by suicide, she turned into a bird. Leigh, who is half Asian and half white, travels to Taiwan to meet her maternal grandparents for the first time. There, she is determined to find her mother, the bird. In her search, she winds up chasing after ghosts, uncovering family secrets, and forging a new relationship with her grandparents. And as she grieves, she must try to reconcile the fact that on the same day she kissed her best friend and longtime secret crush, Axel, her mother was taking her own life. A New York Times Bestseller Alternating between real and magic, past and present, friendship and romance, hope and despair, The Astonishing Color of After is a stunning and heartbreaking novel about finding oneself through family history, art, grief, and love.By Gene Gant. 2019
Can two teens with everything stacked against them find love and happiness when doing the right thing leads to persecution?…
Held captive and sexually abused by a sadistic criminal, Joey rescued a younger boy when he got his chance to escape. But instead of being applauded for his bravery, he’s accused of hurting the boy and sees firsthand how unfair the system can be to someone young, poor, and black. He flees to an abandoned house, renames himself Alan, and shares his new life with Desi, another homeless youth. Desi is deeply attracted to Alan, and Alan feels the same, even if his past has tainted those feelings. While trying to let go of his past, Alan discovers that Desi isn’t free, chased by the older teen who’s been pimping him out. Alan intends to change that, but doing the right thing and confronting Desi’s pimp may put Alan on the wrong side of the law once again.By Eli Easton. 2019
Popular athlete Brian had everything until a school shooter nearly killed him. He survived the massacre with the help of…
a hero—his classmate Landon, who faced death to help others… and who is openly gay. Brian might be alive, but he can’t face his fears or move on, especially since the shooters were never caught. He’s falling apart, and he can only reach for Landon and hope Landon will take his hand a second time. Landon did what anyone would do when he found Brian dying on the cafeteria floor. He doesn’t think of himself as a hero, but he’s ready to take a stand against the gun violence tearing apart the lives of young people—people like Brian, who returned to school a shadow of the happy, outgoing quarterback Landon used to admire. Brian still needs him, and as their friendship grows and deepens, wounds might begin to heal. The bond they share could lead a new start for them both. Only the terror that visited Jefferson Waller High School isn’t over yet.By Ronni Davis. 2019
Nicola Yoon meets Jenny Han in a heated first-love romance about two teens who are torn apart one summer by…
prejudice and mental illness, and find each other once again.Eighteen-year-old Devon longs for two things. The stars.And the boy she fell in love with last summer. When Ashton breaks Devon's heart at the end of the most romantic and magical summer ever, she thinks her heart will never heal again. But over the course of the following year, Devon finds herself slowly putting the broken pieces back together.Now it's senior year and she's determined to enjoy every moment of it, as she prepares for a future studying galaxies. That is, until Ashton shows up on the first day of school. Can she forgive and open her heart to him again? Or are they doomed to repeat history? From debut author, Ronni Davis, comes a stunning novel about passion, loss, and the power of first love.By Saundra Mitchell. 2019
Sadie meets Girl in Pieces in this dark, emotional thriller by acclaimed author Saundra Mitchell.Something happened to Ava. The curving…
scar on her face is proof. Ava would rather keep that something hidden—buried deep in her heart and her soul.But in the woods on the outskirts of town, the traces of someone else’s secrets lie frozen, awaiting Ava’s discovery—and what Ava finds threatens to topple the carefully constructed wall of normalcy that she’s spent years building around her.Secrets leave scars. But when the secret in question is not your own—do you ignore the truth and walk away? Or do you uncover it from its shallow grave and let it reopen old wounds—wounds that have finally begun to heal?By Kiran Millwood Hargrave. 2019
Gothic, intoxicating, feminist, darkly provoking and deeply romantic - this is the breathtakingly imagined untold story of the brides of…
Dracula, by bestselling author Kiran Millwood Hargrave in her much-anticipated YA debut.They say the thirst of blood is like a madness - they must sate it. Even with their own kin.On the eve of her divining, the day she'll discover her fate, seventeen-year-old Lil and her twin sister Kizzy are captured and enslaved by the cruel Boyar Valcar, taken far away from their beloved traveller community. Forced to work in the harsh and unwelcoming castle kitchens, Lil is comforted when she meets Mira, a fellow slave who she feels drawn to in a way she doesn't understand. But she also learns about the Dragon, a mysterious and terrifying figure of myth and legend who takes girls as gifts. They may not have had their divining day, but the girls will still discover their fate...By Brian Francis. 2019
Dads can be such a dragLife has been a struggle for Toby Goodman. Her mother died by suicide five years…
ago, and her father left their small town before Toby was born. Now a teenager living on her grandparents’ dairy farm, Toby has trouble letting people in. She keeps even her closest friend, the brash but endearing Trisha, at arms’ length, and recently ended her first relationship, with Trisha’s burnout brother, Mike. Convinced that she is destined to follow her mother’s path, Toby creates a plan to escape her pain.But with the news that her father is coming home and finally wants to meet her, Toby must face the truth of her family’s story. Not only is her father gay, but he’s also a world-famous female impersonator—and a self-absorbed, temperamental man-child who is ill-prepared to be a real parent. When Toby’s careful plans go awry, she is forced to rebuild the life she thought she knew from the ground up. While she may not follow an expected path, through the support of a quirky but lovable circle of friends and family, Toby may finally put together the many different pieces that make up her past, her present, and her future.By Cobe Reinbold. 2018
A small Idaho town is shaken by the disappearance of high school student Mady Smith. The official cause of death…
is deemed suicide… but the body is still missing. It seems as though the community has accepted the explanation, but her boyfriend believes otherwise. Brian's suspicions are validated when he receives a laptop she left him. The laptop uncovers a series of clues that convince him there’s more to the story then suicide. He enlists the help of three friends to decipher the clues and solve the mystery. Throughout the journey of twists and turns, they find themselves in life threatening situations, which lead them to discover Mady’s dangerous and twisted past.By L. D. Crichton. 2019
You can't keep two people who are meant to be together apart for long...Lennon Davis doesn't believe in much, but…
she does believe in the security of the number five. If she flicks the bedroom light switch five times, maybe her new LA school won't suck. But that doesn't feel right, so she flicks the switch again. And again. Ten more flicks of the switch and maybe her new stepfamily will accept her. Twenty-five more flicks and maybe she won't cause any more of her loved ones to die. Fifty more and then she can finally go to sleep. Kyler Benton witnesses this pattern of lights from the safety of his tree house in the yard next door. It is only there, hidden from the unwanted stares of his peers, that Kyler can fill his notebooks with lyrics that reveal the true scars of the boy behind the oversize hoodies and caustic humor. But Kyler finds that descriptions of blond hair, sad eyes, and tapping fingers are beginning to fill the pages of his notebooks. Lennon, the lonely girl next door his father has warned him about, infiltrates his mind. Even though he has enough to deal with without Lennon's rumored tragic past in his life, Kyler can't help but want to know the truth about his new muse.By Sara Ella. 2019
Inspired by &“The Little Mermaid,&” Coral explores what it means to be human in a world where humanity often seems…
lost.Coral has always been different, standing out from her mermaid sisters in a society where blending in is key. She fears she has been afflicted with the dreaded Disease said to be carried by humans: emotions. Her sister had the Disease, and Red Tide took her away. Will it come for Coral next?Above the sea, Brooke has nothing left to give. Depression and anxiety have left her feeling isolated. Forgotten. The only thing she can rely on is the numbness she finds within the cool and comforting ocean waves. If only she weren&’t stuck at a new group-therapy home that promises a second chance at life. But what&’s the point of living if her soul is destined to bleed?Merrick may be San Francisco&’s golden boy, but he wants nothing more than to escape his controlling father. When his younger sister&’s suicide attempt sends Merrick to his breaking point, escape becomes the only option. If he can find their mom, everything will be made right again—right?When their worlds collide, all three will do whatever it takes to survive. But what—and who—must they leave behind for life to finally begin?Praise for Coral:&“This heart-wrenching tale will pull you under its spell.&” —ANNIE SULLIVAN, author of A Touch of Gold and Tiger Queen&“A beautiful reimagining.&” —LAUREN MANSY, author of The Memory Thief&“A breathless, powerful journey of the heart and mind.&” —LINDSAY A. FRANKLIN, award-winning author of The Story PeddlerA stand-alone, full-length Young Adult novelTrigger warning: suicide and depressionBy Nora Shalaway Carpenter. 2020
Starred Kirkus Review!A vibrant #ownvoices debut YA novel about grief, mental health, and the transformative power of friendship.Len is a…
loner teen photographer haunted by a past that's stagnated her work and left her terrified she's losing her mind. Sage is a high school volleyball star desperate to find a way around her sudden medical disqualification. Both girls need college scholarships. After a chance encounter, the two develop an unlikely friendship that enables them to begin facing their inner demons.But both Len and Sage are keeping secrets that, left hidden, could cost them everything, maybe even their lives.Set in the North Carolina mountains, this dynamic #ownvoices novel explores grief, mental health, and the transformative power of friendship.By Jeff Garvin. 2020
A quirky and heartfelt coming-of-age story about a teen girl with bipolar II who signs her failed magician father up…
to perform his legendary but failed illusion on live TV in order to make enough money to pay for the medications they need—from the author of Symptoms of Being Human. Perfect for fans of Adi Alsaid, David Arnold, and Arvin Ahmadi. Sixteen-year-old Ellie Dante is desperate for something in her life to finally go right. Her father was a famous stage magician until he attempted an epic illusion on live TV—and failed. Now Ellie lives with her dad in a beat-up RV, attending high school online and performing with him at birthday parties and bars across the Midwest to make ends meet.But when the gigs dry up, their insurance lapses, leaving Dad’s heart condition unchecked and forcing Ellie to battle her bipolar II disorder without medication.Then Ellie receives a call from a famous magic duo, who offer fifteen thousand dollars and a shot at redemption: they want her father to perform the illusion that wrecked his career—on their live TV special, which shoots in Los Angeles in ten days. Ellie knows her dad will refuse—but she takes the deal anyway, then lies to persuade him to head west. With the help of her online-only best friend and an unusual guy she teams up with along the way, Ellie makes a plan to stage his comeback. But when her lie is exposed, she’ll have to confront her illness and her choices head-on to save her father—and herself.By Anna Jarzab. 2020
“Expansive, romantic, and powerful.” —Gayle Forman, #1 New York Times bestselling author of If I Stay and I Have Lost…
My WaySusannah Ramos has always loved the water. A swimmer whose early talent made her a world champion, Susannah was poised for greatness in a sport that demands so much of its young. But an inexplicable slowdown has put her dream in jeopardy, and Susannah is fighting to keep her career afloat when two important people enter her life: a new coach with a revolutionary training strategy, and a charming fellow swimmer named Harry Matthews.As Susannah begins her long and painful climb back to the top, her friendship with Harry blossoms into passionate and supportive love. But Harry is facing challenges of his own, and even as their bond draws them closer together, other forces work to tear them apart. As she struggles to balance her needs with those of the people who matter most to her, Susannah will learn the cost—and the beauty—of trying to achieve something extraordinary.By Lisa Allen-Agostini. 2018
Fans of Monday's Not Coming and Girl in Pieces will love this award-winning novel about a girl on the verge…
of losing herself and the unlikely journey to recovery after she is removed from anything and everyone she knows to be home.Moving from Trinidad to Canada wasn't her idea. But after being hospitalized for depression, her mother sees it as the only option. Now, living with an estranged aunt she barely remembers and dealing with her "troubles" in a foreign country, she feels more lost than ever.Everything in Canada is cold and confusing. No one says hello, no one walks anywhere, and bus trips are never-ending and loud. She just wants to be home home, in Trinidad, where her only friend is going to school and Sunday church service like she used to do.But this new home also brings unexpected surprises: the chance at a family that loves unconditionally, the possibility of new friends, and the promise of a hopeful future. Though she doesn't see it yet, Canada is a place where she can feel at home--if she can only find the courage to be honest with herself."Allen-Agostini uses frank yet gentle prose...[in this] hopeful story about finding one's place and the sometimes-difficult journey to self-acceptance."-Kirkus Reviews, Starred review"An accessible look at teen anxiety and depression...[Home Home] shines in its depictions of the physical and emotional aspects of anxiety and depression...[and] teens of color coping with mental illness will find common cause with this Trini girl's journey toward self-actualization and healing."--Booklist"Allen-Agostini depicts the culture of her homeland with honesty and enlightening details,...delivering important messages about acceptance and mental illness."-SLJBy Amelia Diane Coombs. 2020
Sparks fly when two ex-best-friends team up to save a family business in this swoon-worthy and witty debut perfect for…
fans of Jenn Bennett and Sarah Dessen.Caroline &“Chuck&” Wilson has big plans for spring break—hit up estate sales to score vintage fashion finds and tour the fashion school she dreams of attending. But her dad wrecks those plans when he asks her to spend vacation working the counter at Bigmouth&’s Bowl, her family&’s failing bowling alley. Making things astronomically worse, Chuck finds out her dad is way behind on back rent—meaning they might be losing Bigmouth&’s, the only thing keeping Chuck&’s family in San Francisco. And the one person other than Chuck who wants to do anything about it? Beckett Porter, her annoyingly attractive ex-best friend. So when Beckett propositions Chuck with a plan to make serious cash infiltrating the Bay Area action bowling scene, she accepts. But she can&’t shake the nagging feeling that she&’s acting irrational—too much like her mother for comfort. Plus, despite her best efforts to keep things strictly business, Beckett&’s charm is winning her back over...in ways that go beyond friendship. If Chuck fails, Bigmouth&’s Bowl and their San Francisco legacy are gone forever. But if she succeeds, she might just get everything she ever wanted.By Alexandra Latos. 2020
This heartfelt novel for fans of Jandy Nelson and Adam Silvera follows twins Audrey and Clare as they grapple with…
their brother's death and their changing relationships-with each other and themselves. Audrey&’s best friend was always her twin, Clare. But as they got older, they grew apart, and when their brother Adam died, Clare blamed Audrey for the accident. Now, Audrey&’s attending an alternative school where she feels more isolated than ever. Tired of being seen as different from her neurotypical peers, Audrey&’s determined to switch to the public high school, rebuild her friendship with Clare, and atone for Adam&’s death . . . but she&’ll need to convince her parents, and her therapist, first. Clare knows her sister thinks she&’s the perfect twin, but Audrey doesn&’t realize that Clare&’s &“popular&” status is crumbling—she&’s begun to question old friendships, dress in Adam&’s clothes, and wonder what feelings for a nonbinary classmate, Taylor, might mean. As she grapples with not only grief but also her gender fluidity, Clare wonders where she&’ll belong if she sheds her carefully constructed image and embraces her true self. Will first crushes, new family dynamics, and questions of identity prove that Audrey and Clare have grown too different to understand each other-or that they've needed each other all along?By Julia Walton. 2019
From the author of Words on Bathroom Walls--now a major motion picture--comes a romance in the spirit of Dear Evan…
Hansen about overcoming anxiety--and about finding love and friendship in unlikely places."Bad luck follows lies." That was the first rule for life that Leo's Greek grandmother, Yia Yia, gave him before she died. But Leo's anxiety just caused a fight at school, and though he didn't lie, he wasn't exactly honest about how it all went down--how he went down. Now Leo's father thinks a self-defense class is exactly what his son needs to "man up.""Leave the Paros family alone." That was Yia Yia's second rule for life. But who does Leo see sitting at the front desk of the local gym? Evey Paros, whose family supposedly cursed Leo's with bad luck. Seeing that Leo is desperate to enroll in anything but self-defense class, Evey cuts him a deal: she'll secretly enroll him in hot yoga instead--for a price. But what could the brilliant, ruthless, forbidden Evey Paros want from Leo?Sharp, honest, and compulsively readable, Just Our Luck is as funny as it is heartwarming. Readers will root for Leo as he takes charge of his own destiny."A feel-good story, with shades of Holes and The Karate Kid" --BulletinDon't miss Words on Bathroom Walls, Julia Walton's brilliant debut!By Amy Reed. 2021
We Were Liars meets Speak in this haunting, mesmerizing psychological thriller—a gender-flipped YA Great Gatsby—that will linger long after the…
final lineOn wealthy Commodore Island, Fern is watching and waiting—for summer, for college, for her childhood best friend to decide he loves her. Then Ivy Avila lands on the island like a falling star. When Ivy shines on her, Fern feels seen. When they're together, Fern has purpose. She glimpses the secrets Ivy hides behind her fame, her fortune, the lavish parties she throws at her great glass house, and understands that Ivy hurts in ways Fern can't fathom. And soon, it's clear Ivy wants someone Fern can help her get. But as the two pull closer, Fern's cozy life on Commodore unravels: drought descends, fires burn, and a reckless night spins out of control. Everything Fern thought she understood—about her home, herself, the boy she loved, about Ivy Avila—twists and bends into something new. And Fern won't emerge the same person she was.An enthralling, mind-altering psychological thriller, Tell Me My Name is about the cost of being a girl in a world that takes so much, and the enormity of what is regained when we take it back.The New York Times: "13 Y.A. Books to Add to Your Reading List This Spring""A lush, gorgeously crafted page-turner." —Jennifer Mathieu, author of Moxie&“A kaleidoscope of light and shadow that will keep you flipping page after page.&” —Amber Smith, author of The Way We Used to Be ★ "Immersive [and] smartly written.&” —SLJ (starred review)&“Only Amy Reed could write a novel this dark, this gorgeous, this forward-looking while speaking to our present moment.&” —Wiley Cash, author of A Land More Kind Than Home"The best kind of literary thriller—one with as much conscience as pulse." —Brendan Kiely, co-author of All American Boys&“I haven&’t felt this way since reading We Were Liars—mind blown.&” —Jaye Robin Brown, author of Georgia Peaches and Other Forbidden Fruit★ "As much Hitchcockian suspense as Fitzgerald&’s tarnished glitz." —BCCB (starred review)"This novel is amazing . . . A pulsating, hypnotic retelling.&” —Lilliam Rivera, author of The Education of Margot Sanchez&“Relentlessly compelling . . . Reed's latest is a literary thrill ride.&” —Kelly Jensen, author of (Don&’t) Call Me Crazy and editor at BookRiot&“[A] harrowing tale of personal trauma in a violently polarized society.&” —Kirkus&“A compelling and propulsive thriller.&” —Jeff Zentner, author of The Serpent King"I barely breathed the last 100 pages. Simply stunning.&” —Megan Shepherd, author of The Madman's Daughter